don't hold it against me

it's all i can think about. going home. it's not going to be like the other times. it's going to be different, i just know it. i'm eager to spend my last few months as a non-missionary with my family. i'm excited to eat good food. and by "good food" i mean anything other than granola bars, txrh rolls (which i'll probably still eat), and the occasional delicacy, more commonly referred to as mac-n-cheese. i'm anxious to work on me. to work on becoming the best version of myself. the version ready and worthy to serve the lord for 18 months. i'm excited to be healthy and happy. because i firmly believe before you can help other people, you must first help yourself.

the last days

my days in rexburg idaho are coming to a close. and i'm more happy about it than sad (oops). since this is my last real weekend in rexy, i'm making it count. tonight i'm going to play phazer tag with juelaine, tiffany matt, jordan, alicia and zac (i only know half of them, cool). tomorrow i'm working a double, which doesn't sound cool, but it means money. and then monday night i've got the parachute concert with juelaine, katelyn and cristian in salt lake city. i cannot wait. it'll probably be my last concert before my mission and parachute is fantastic. if you're not familiar with parachute, familiarize yourself with these songs...

what i know

she is love

kiss me slowly

philadelphia

until the 15th, it's just cleaning, packing, crying, packing, working, packing, sleeping, and packing. it's gonna be a whirlwind of two weeks. but i'm so excited. here we goooooo!

frayed

picture, you're the queen of everything

as far as the eye can see

under your command

i will be your guardian

when all is crumbling

to steady your hand

don't let me go

i was here

give it up for my girl beyonce

was i the only one who got goosebumps and teary-eyed watching that? i'd like to think i've done something to make my mark on this world. i want to know that i changed somebody's life for the better. that all this time i've spent here being me hasn't been a waste. i'd like to think i've been good for something more. i want to leave this world a better place. i want to leave knowing i've done my best, and hopefully made somebody else's day a little brighter along the way.

mraz in the morning

Running to catch up again, jumping higher and flying more often than not

Your trampoline has got holes in it but I can still see the top

Let me climb aboard and sample some of next years fashion

I'll wear the coat if you can put the hat on, I will wear the coat,

Just let me clear my throat so I can say what's been delayed away

Let me crawl into your lap and just lay here for awhile

Satisfied by your seduction like a handshake would do the job

Never know how long I have waited, anticipated your smile to be pressed against mine

I don't believe it that things could get any worse than they did that time

You must have seen it I mean how could we get lost running in a straight line

Your cries of why's and why not's, may it all get back to you

And trickle and dance upon your headaches, years of biting cheeks are through

So I don't believe in it.

But I feel it.

tomorrow is groundhog day

current thank you: to dallin, for the frozen yogurt tuesday night, kiwi loco is good stuff
current color: blue
current playlist: parachute, city & colour
current read: just like january, nothing...i really should work on that
current drink: grape juice
current food: cafe rio between shifts, mmm
current favorite show: gossip girl, gettin all caught up and shtuff
current wishlist: a fancy new camera
current needs: is money too typical? i also need to clean my car out
current triumphs: selling my second block contract!
current bane of my existence: my to-do list
current celebrity crush: robert schwartzman... go ahead, imdb him (the cutie from princess diaries)
current indulgence: netflix
current blessing: my decision to go on a mission
current outfit: txrh shirt and pajama pants
current excitement: the parachute concert on monday, moving home in two weeks
current mood: lazy
current link: if you haven't seen this, you seriously need to

finalized

i love making plans.

but more than that i love finalizing plans.

that means they're real.

thanks to my mom and stepdad, i'm moving out of here on the 15th, flying out of slc on the 17th, and my car is getting picked up to be shipped to kentucky on the 20th. i'm finally going home! two weeks from today is my last day of work, and then it's on to bigger and better things.