NEAT

this post is dedicated to miss betsy tracy

mostly because she likes the word neat

and i couldnt think of another title

so it seems fitting

things are somewhat back to normal. in certain aspects of my life. me and bri are friends again. and im so happy about it. i missed him so much. im in no position to lose friends, so im happy hes back. i wrote him a birthday letter cause its tomorrow and im gonna miss it. booo. but yay for birthdays!

colins was the other day. and my dad and stepmoms anniversary was on wednesday.

so guess what

guess

guess

guess

two weeks of school left!!!!!

thats it! can you believe it? im so incredibly excited. i cant wait to get to vegas. i absolutely positively love rexburg. so so much. but im happy school is gonna be over. im stressin big time. i always say im gonna be a good student, but it never happens. next semester i will i promise.

i had the most fabulous weekend last weekend. but right now...

nap > blog, so its gonna have to wait.

fjdklaf; 14 days and counting

current musical obsession: "a drop in the ocean" by ron pope

and the beat goes on...

my happiness streak continues. haha im seriously so happy. i absolutely love my life right now. everything about it. i had a couple bad days this week, but i wasnt down for long. i have the best friends, the best family, the best everything.

last night me and amy went to patriots and pioneers, this choir/band thing. i had to go for my humanities class so i wasnt particulary looking forward to it, but it was SO GOOOD. it made me miss choir so bad. i miss select, i miss backrub thursdays, i miss sickel, i miss singing everyday, i miss songs that give me goosebumps, i miss our chicago trip, i miss the unity and the people.

but this was amazing. at the beginning we all sang "the star spangled banner" and it was incredible. i got chills. it was a good reminder for how blessed i am to live in this country. we have so much opportunity, freedom, pride and so many blessings. i completely enjoyed last night. i miss being in choir. me and bets decided were gonna do university choir next semester, i cant wait.

there is something i absolutely positively loooove about summer nights. i love driving around with the windows down, blasting music and singing along. i love shorts and tshirts. i love how perfect the temperature at night is. last night i went with justin and little john longboarding. i didnt actually go, i just drove them to the top of hills and followed them down. haha it was so fun. longboarding must be a rexburg/westcoast thing cause i swear people dont do that in kansas.

this weekend is going to be spectacular. blake and kat are in oregon :( so im all by myself. but its going to be just phenomenal. except for the fact that i have to take a science test that im confident i will fail. oh wellllll. tomorrow, fireworks, a cookout, a sleepover and the new 3oh!3 album will make everything all better.

fjdklaf; i love where i come from, happy fourth of julyyy

p.s. my current musical obsesssion... "im not the one" by 3oh!3

85 degrees in rexburg? whaaaa?

its so hot

its supposed to be in the NINETIES tomorrow

im gonna diiiiie

at least its not humid

anywayssss, we got back from utah last night. we brought bri back with us! i like her. i like her a lot. i was jealous though cause i miss my baby sister. hadleys finally being nice to me again though so thats good. i miss her more than anybody else in the whole wide world.

utah was kinda gay this weekend.

this is basically it:

friday we ate panda in IF

alec, caroline and lizzy picked me up from borders in slc

we went to their house in provo

i did my extra credit humanities homework

me and amalia went to see the last song (for the second time)

slept on the trampoline

woke up

had french toast and sausage

got ready

watched the usa/ghana game... id rather not talk about it

skyped with ben

went to five guys

went to see the bounty hunter

went home and planned our trip to draper (that ended up not happening)

went to in-n-out for dinner

went to the loft

went home

laid on the trampoline

talked to

logan

alex

marcel

and brent

went to bed

woke up

ate a breakfast burrito (my first ever)

went to church

played phase 10 with caroline and clark

mali took me to meet amy and bri

ate chipotle

came home

the end

yeah, not too eventful. now i just need to make it to next weekend

fourth of july

amalia and ben

no school monday

yay

yay

yay

yay

yay

friday (n): a great feeling, happy, no more shit for two days

hellllooooo friday!

my absolute favorite day of the week. today means panda express, a roadtrip, best friend time, utahhhh, familia, just... yay. so i definitely only got 4 and a half hours of sleep last night. and im gonna be driving today. good choice on my part huh? oh wellllll. at least i went to one of my three classes today. thats big for me. i took my humanities music test. ick. it was awful. im feelin a B or so though. so thats good.

the panda express in IF opened this week (only panda in the WHOLE state of idaho). its sort of a big deal. me and amy are going there for lunch before heading to slc. yay for panda. i havent had it since april. thats a big deal.

my current music obsessions: minus the bear (thank you shawn wilcox), pretty lights (thank you brent arnold), bloc party, passion pit (thank you sophie wallerstedt) and safetysuit (thank you calaigh labrum). so so so sososo good. im in love with music, did you know?

im so very excited to see my absolute favorite second cousin once removed amaliaaaa :) i miss her and her little brothers and sisters. i wish i was cool like them and had italian middle names cause my mom was italian. their parents speak italian to eachother. how cute is that? seriously. i wanna be able to speak another language to my husband... so sexy.

--8:45--

welllll im sitting here waiting for amalia to get home so we can do something awesome and reek havoc on the town. i like provo. i like it a lot. its charming? is that the word i want? im not sure. i like provo though.

ive missed these people. little lizzy is so cute. right now shes drawing christmas pictures for me out of a coloring book. its definitely june, far away from christmas. but thats okay. thats what i miss about being a little kid. its okay that shes drawing christmas pictures in june because thats what she wants to do. i miss not having to worry about anything but what color crayon to use. life was good back then.

i met amy's baby sister today. it made me miss my baby sister. i miss our drives, our music, our walks, our talks, our random activities and adventures, finishing eachothers sentences, sleeping in my car, just... everything.

k well im thinking this is long enough for now. have i mentioned i like utah? well i do, a lot.

fjdklaf; i like roadtrips

ch ch ch changes

wow, two in one week. im impressed with myself, as should you be.

im making lots of changes in my life right now. i want to be better. about everything. even though i have ZERO motivation for school right now (because come on, school in the summer? its just not okay) im gonna try supaaaa hard to get all A's this semester. i want my scholarship back.

i want to do more "good" things. sister connell was a big fan of "trade the good things for better things" and frankly, i need to start with good. i wrote in my journal last night. that was big for me. i used to be wayyy good about journal writing, but something happened and well, i suck at it now. it'd been like a month since i'd written anything. but im trying to be better. i read my scriptures for book of mormon, but honestly, that's probably only because i have to. im bad about scripture study on my own. which is why im happy im taking a religion class. at least im reading them at all, right? i love marking up my scriptures. when i turn to a page and see it full of color and writing it makes me so happy. my prayers have been better though. yay mee.

is it wrong that its 3:32 in the morning and i may or may not have been reading my best friends blog instead of doing homework? nahhh, probably not. i love amy. i dont think ive ever had so much in common with a friend before. except had, but thats inevitable. im just bummed we didnt start hanging out earlier, like last semester. but maybe thats good. i love our talks. i feel like i can tell her anything. and thats something i havent had for awhile. i trust her. and i like having people i can trust. we do the weirdest things together, but thats okay, because weird is good. and we enjoy it, so who cares?

im so ready for utah this weekend. as much as i love rexburg, im happy to be getting away. im bummed calaigh is gonna be with ster, but that just means i get extra time with amalia and ben and clarke and caroline and lizzy and alec and irene. i love family. i love my family. i love that me and my mom get along so much better when i'm at school. i'm finally realizing that she's right about more than i thought. my dad's a complete douchebag, but thats okay. because i have my mom. and tom. and thats all i really need.

here's tooooo: summer nights, roadtrips, juice, white cheddar cheezits, minus the bear, good morning texts, still loving exboyfriends, popsicles, manual cars, bke jeans, lunch dates, curly hair, flipflops, and everything in between.

i love my life, and the people in it. fjdklaf; i just do :)

the pursuit of happyness

shi all, im the happiest ive been since... i can remember. and thats a gooood thing. life is way good. i have the best friends, the best family, and idaho's weather is finally nice.

i love amy cragun. i like our adventures, our afternoons at the park, our sunday lunches, our spanish homework sessions with chris, our skype conversations, our gay "goodnight" texts, i just really like us.

30 days til i go to vegas

51 days til i go home

189 days til i go to ecuador

i absolutely positively am most definitely in love with summer. i just hate that i have to be in schoool. i like rexburg. i like it a lot. i like that the weather is finally nice.

i like taking pictures. i like doing things that are worthy of taking pictures of. i really like juice. a lot. and thai food. mmmm good.

i like david archuleta, even though im kind of embarrassed to say it. i would marry him 1) if he knew who i was, 2) if he was half a foot taller, 3) if he loved me back. hahah hes awesome. he is the nicest, funniest, cutest, most genuine, grateful, appreciative and in love with what he does person i've seen. he was here last weekend and i saw him (and david osmond, who i got a picture with thank you very much) with my fellow 816 hussy BETSY TRACY. it was bomb.

oh, and i really like tie-dye :)))

im really scatter-brained today, but i just thought i would share.

fjdklaf; so im paige

i want

its juuuune! can you believe it? JUUUUNE!!!! that means i'll be done with school next month and i am oh so excited. i cant wait.

i want to be home. i want to be with my friends. i want to be with the boy i like. i want to get all A's this semester. i want more sleep. i want summer nights. i want trips to utah. i want more backrubs during devo. i want to master spanish. i want to be a better student. i want to want more from life.

this month is gonna be amazing. i can feel it. its starting to be summer! no its not warm yet (idaho sucks), but today was nice. and the fact that it's freaking june means summer is close. and im happppy about that.