this is finals week

wearing tie-dye hoodies to take spanish finals, and damon playing in betsy's snuggie

catching my breath

finals week is coming to close. praise the lord, allah, budah, whoever you worship. this was the hardest semester in my five semesters (unfortunately my grades reflect that) and i've never wanted so badly for it to be over. this is the first second of spare time i've had all week and i'm simply reveling in it.

i wish i was going to kentucky for christmas. but i'm thankful i have a job, and i'm thankful i have a place to live, and i'm thankful i have family in provo who is letting me spend the holidays with them. but most of all i'm just really excited that in just 12 days brent will be here in idaho with me.

no time

i haven't done tumblr thursday in forever, i know. but i just don't have time for it! finals + white glove + work five days a week + sleep = no time for anything. just know that brent will be here in 18 days to spend two weeks with me and also know that i am obsessed with this song. thank you and goodnight.

it's about time

for latter-day saints, family home evening is a time set aside each week that brings family members closer together while doing positive, uplifting activities that can also draw them closer to God. here at byu-i, our "families" are groups of 12-18 boys and girls from the same ward. unfortunately, every semester i've been here my fhe group hasn't really clicked and we don't enjoy spending time together outside of our monday night activities. 

i didn't have the highest of hopes for my fhe family this semester either, as there are twice as many girls as there are boys, and the boys we have are all 18, while we're a couple years older. well... i would just like to say that i am in love with them. it's stoooopid that we only have a week and a half left of school and we're just now finding out how great everyone is. but seriously. last night we all cuddled on our couch and watched music videos on the projector for five hours. not even mad about it.

hey there december ;)

seriously though... december, already? december is snowflakes, christmas music, candles, chocolate dipped pretzels, hot cocoa, finals, christmas in vegas, and secret santa at texas roadhouse. bring it.


current guilty pleasure: justin bieber's christmas album
current color: black
(ugh blogger is being retarded and keeps putting in necessary spaces, forgive me)

current playlist: lots of gavin degraw and bruno mars

current read: my child development textbook

current drink: chocolate milk

current food: caesar salad, butterfingers

current favorite show: new girl

current wish list: new blue skinnies

current needs: someone to pay my rent... today

current triumphs: 3 pounds

current bane of my existence: school school school omg schoooooool

current celebrity crush: dermot mulroney

current indulgence: sleep, so much sleep

current blessing: kind strangers

current outfit: striped tank top and sweats

current excitement: brent is spending winter break with me in idaho

current mood: stressed, nervous, anxious

current link: i love aj... and eventually everyone else will too

tumblr thursday will most likely come later (that's for you chelsie and ashley), but right now i've got a hot date with some stats and spanish phonetics. ugh let's fast forward two weeks please.

food coma

did you know that it's scientific fact that most people gain weight in the winter? after all i've eaten the last two days, i'm not even surprised. yesterday at 530, after kelsey and i were finally done for the day (complete with 4 classes and a test for each of us), we decided to celebrate with a $5.99 craigo's buffet. then today we woke up to snow. kelsey decided to skip class, and i didn't have class, so we picked betsy up and proceeded to nom nom on some breakfast at jb's. talk about the ultimate fat day. now we're enjoying our food babies and preparing to snuggle up on our sectional couch and watch movies for the remainder of the day.

i hate snow.
i hate cold.
i hate that today is icky.

but i like that it means a movie day.
and hoodies.
and hot chocolate.
and comfy socks.

so it's okay...

stress

life sucks lately mostly because i only have $21.02 in my checking account to last me until i get a job but who knows when that will be even though i hope it's soon because i literally have no money but my grandma should be sending me a $100 check soon and instead of buying my new phone with it i think i'm going to pay tithing because i feel like if i do that then maybe i'll get blessings and something miraculous will happen like i'll get a call about one of these jobs or i'll find like a million dollars laying in the road or something and i think that'd be really cool and what else is pissing me off is the fact that i've gotten TWO parking tickets in the last 48 hours and that infuriates me more than just about anything else ever has and it's really super frustrating and also i have a lot of homework and i don't feel like doing it and i want to take a shower but i don't have time because i have said homework and also i'm going to tanner's parents house in idaho falls tonight for a fire and smores so that's gonna be fun but i'll probably be worried the whole time about getting my homework done and being in bed at a decent hour and i also need to talk to someone about my schedule and finding out how far away i am from getting my associates so i can make plans to transfer to uvu or provo so i can get out of rexburg and it's all just so overwhelming and i honestly just feel like curling up in a ball and sleeping forever.

but i can't. so i'm going to make a list of reasons to be grateful today, suck it up, and move on.

this is fall

betsy is one of my best friends. betsy is diabetic. betsy was diagnosed with type 1 juvenile diabetes 8 years ago this month. diabetes is a chronic lifetime disease without a cure. and that is why i did what i did today...

this morning i was woken up when betsy came into my room, covered my cold bare shoulder with my blankets, and said in a sing-song voice, "wake up princess." it was beyond ideal. today i enjoyed waking up at 8am. 

kelsey, betsy and i then proceeded to put on our icky work out clothes and drove to idaho falls with the sunroof open, letting MGMT and Empire of the Sun course through our veins. it was magical. we followed my gps (who i named gladys) to snake river landing where we walked a 5k to raise money for a cure for diabetes. upon crossing the finish line we were met with applause from storm troopers and star wars babies, and led to a potato bar for lunch. it was seriously the perfect fall day. i'm content with 60 degrees and sunny. perfectly content.

go donate!

i'm happy

the last three weeks have been full of; driving across the country, playing with best friends, meeting new people, random exciting dates, concerts, the beach, disneyland, long car rides, good food, good conversation, finally winning a game of pool, moving in to my new apartment, getting hardly any sleep, losing three pounds, hair cuts, shopping on the strip, cafe rio, ferris wheels and petting zoos, hot tubs, reunions with missionaries from my mission, sunrises, sunsets, and enjoying my last weekend before school starts.

it's been the epitome of perfection and i'm not ready for it to end. but i'm really excited about ending my 9 month hiatus from school. it's time to get back to the real world (unfortunately), and i'm ready for change. 

oh, and p.s. 

i got accepted to china!

i still feel like i need to pray about it and make sure it's gonna be the right thing for me to do this winter. but i'm excited nonetheless. four months from now i'll be in asia with chelsie teaching english to little chinese kids. i think that sounds pretty good to me. winter 2011 was spent in ecuador, winter 2012... hi china :)

look what i found

sooo, i have to give a talk in church on sunday. am i working on completing it? nope, i'm organizing the files on my computer. because i'm the biggest procrastinator on the planet (if you think you can compete with me for that title, you cannot), and will do absolutely anything besides focus on the task at hand. anyhow, while "organizing" my life, i found this poem. i think maybe i wrote it in a creative writing class a couple semesters ago? i'm not sure where exactly it came from. but i found it. and anyone who knows my family knows that my mom is the writer. not me. but i'm being brave and showing the world anyways.

There is a place I like to go – to think, to dream, to pray, to wonder, to get away.

It’s my haven. 

It’s my refuge.

It’s my Sacred Grove.

There is something so ideal about swinging –

Pumping your feet,

Getting in a rhythm of moving your legs out and in to gain height,

Until you arrive at the point where you are as tall as the trees,

So close to the sky that you feel like if you reach out far enough,

You just might be able to touch it.

My playground takes me back to my childhood –

To a time when I didn’t care,

When I didn’t worry,

When I didn’t doubt.

A time when everything was still good,

When I wasn’t afraid to dream,

When I was completely myself.

It is there, on the last swing on the right,

That I take my deepest thoughts, secrets, and desires.

It is there, where the swings squeak and the children play,

That I discover myself.

I don’t know if it’s the cathartic fresh air,

The juvenile setting,

Or the fact that I have a place to escape to just two minutes from my house,

But there is nothing that lifts my mood like entering the world that I experience at that swing.

It is where everything else melts away,

Where, for however long I am there, nobody can bother me.

My playground isn’t fancy, secret, or my own.

But it’s perfect.

And when I’m there, I belong. 

toooo dooooo

find/pack/mail boxes home

call kstate

meet with internship people

do laundry

get hair colored

write kyle & nick

spanish make-up work

scripture study portfolio

spanish project

corrections on argumentative paper

find a ride to slc

natural disasters quiz 22

make slides for presentation

personal achievement parts 4, 5 & 6

buy plates for english

revise paper

family history lab

mock trial for madi

date with ryan

and that's just this week

the several days before the end of the semester

stress me out big time

thank heavens for

hot chocolate,

mae,

cosmo,

and thick socks

to keep me happy

p.s. this is probably silly, but i completely loathe the new facebook

only 13 days til i see these people :)

i.want.sleep.

usually im pretty able to keep my serious procrastination problem from messing things up. but tonight, its been a major issue. i have this habit of doing every possible thing but my homework, when i have hours of it. due tomorrow is:

• a spanish take-home test
• a spanish paper
• a spanish assignment
• a 6 part natural disasters assignment
• a natural disasters case studies packet
• 4 chapters to read for scripture study

ALSO, i have to pack. faaaabulous.

how much have i done?

not enough. thats how much.

however...

mae is tomorrow!

and i just cant wait.

im not counting down or anything, but...

17 hours and 45 minutes

los viernos son mis favoritos

uhm, so ive been in a spanish speaking mood alllllll dayyyy

and i dont really see a problem with that

maybe its because in 76 short little days,

i will be in ECUADOORRRR!

also, fridays are just great

even though theyre long,

and tired cause i get no sleep on thursdays

but thats okay because ive been thinking about my free redbox sitting at home waiting for me

and im going to walmart too

and walmart is a pretty good place to be

highlights of today:

i slept through my first two classes (even though thats not a highlight for most, studious, people)

my spanish class is the most hilarious part of every monday, wednesday and friday

i got my natural disasters weeklyassignment turned in on time

cutie choir boy sat by me at lunch

i skipped choir so my afternoon is freeeeee

im a bad student lately

happy viernes chile

i miss everything about you

i suck at blogging, lately. but i think its on account of im so busy with school. which is good. because this semester im actually gonna try. shocker, i know. but when im not doing school-ish things, ill show you what im doing ;)

im working out with emily, EVERY night

be so impressed

im also stealing shopping carts with emily

thats what you have to do when the cute boys behind you in line dont offer to take you and all your food home

im spending saturday mornings at the library with betsy (shes passionately in love with her grammar class)

im spending quality time with zabe and james, james bell

im becoming attracted to men who served their mission in cicily and wear the cicilian flag on their back during the 50 lap relay

im commandeering (i know thats the wrong word, but i like it) the 50 lap relay with bets and flipse and our little committee of 6

...while wearing an orange vest

im reuniting with tiny shorts at hullabaloo round 2

im party hopping with chels, bets and em

that pretty much makes up my life right now. except for the fact that ive been sick this weekend. bad weekend to be sicky. i missed the 80s dance party at cajun bobs, quality time with sam, a sleepover with emily and all sorts of other exciting festivities. oh... and i have big news

1) my lovely calaigh and her sterling are getting married this weekend

1a) im going

1b) im going on a date with jimmy

1c) even though im in a complicated relationship with phil taylor

2) theres a 96% chance that, I WILL NOT BE IN REXBURG IN THE SPRING. yes, tis true. i think im taking a semester off of school to work in utah when i get back from ecuador

3) 95 days til ecuador!!!

4) im blessed with the best

"you eyes are kind, they kill as well"

im stressin. finals are this weeek. white glove was today. amys car broke and now i have to find a new ride to slc. blahhh i just wanna be done. i cant wait one more week. i hate this.

other than that, im prettttty happy. i finally have an A in humanities, and a good chance at getting my scholarship back. im officially going to ecuador (i mailed in my check and application last week). i have the best friends in the world.

last night blake and kat and i went to a dance party at the loft thing above cajun bobs. so fun. so hot. ive never been so hot. but it was funnnn. ry hugged me :) it was a big deal. haha but im gonna miss b & k. i like them a lot. we decided were gonna live together next spring and im pretty happy about that. we all have an understanding of eachother and we get along and we all have the similar un-fondness (thats not a word) for girls, so it works out.

ive hungout with chris like four times now. my favorite was time number 1 and 3. is that weird. i hate being a girl and having feelings. some days i like him. some days i dont. right now i dont. i miss brent. if i was home id be with him right now. were just not in the same place (not just literally) right now. and we want different things.

the other night there was a fire at inl and it made the sky look craaaazy cool. i didnt take any pictures cause my camera is broken. but i stole this one from janelle.

is that not the coolest thing youve ever seen? i like rexburg. im gonna miss this place. ive had the best semester. im comin back in 7 weeeks :)

fjdklaf; im one week away from being a sophomore, frightening...

NEAT

this post is dedicated to miss betsy tracy

mostly because she likes the word neat

and i couldnt think of another title

so it seems fitting

things are somewhat back to normal. in certain aspects of my life. me and bri are friends again. and im so happy about it. i missed him so much. im in no position to lose friends, so im happy hes back. i wrote him a birthday letter cause its tomorrow and im gonna miss it. booo. but yay for birthdays!

colins was the other day. and my dad and stepmoms anniversary was on wednesday.

so guess what

guess

guess

guess

two weeks of school left!!!!!

thats it! can you believe it? im so incredibly excited. i cant wait to get to vegas. i absolutely positively love rexburg. so so much. but im happy school is gonna be over. im stressin big time. i always say im gonna be a good student, but it never happens. next semester i will i promise.

i had the most fabulous weekend last weekend. but right now...

nap > blog, so its gonna have to wait.

fjdklaf; 14 days and counting

current musical obsession: "a drop in the ocean" by ron pope