the end is near

i can't believe that the semester's almost over

but that's beside the point

(not really, but for now)

i got my hair highlighted this week

i feel like i look like my sister

ohhhhh wellllll

and frankly, i like my hair better dark

but it's harder to keep up with

and it's more expensive

and i currently have a sad amount of money to my name

but it'll do... for now

please excuse my retarded faces

and my phone's color is weird

but it's whatevs

also, i'm stressed to the max

and i probably need to get back to my homework

i just feel like you should know

that i took a 19 hour nap last night

i'll be in utah a week from now

i'll be in ecuador in 19 days

and this is my last weekend in rexburg forever

happy saturday

you'll laugh so hard you'll pee

omg this is excellent

like... i really enjoy this

also, i beg of you

pleeeease watch this video

you'll laugh so hard you'll pee

i promise

its fantastic

that's all

my life is beyond lame now that its almost finals time

however...

ive decided that portuguese?

is the sexiest language

toooo dooooo

find/pack/mail boxes home

call kstate

meet with internship people

do laundry

get hair colored

write kyle & nick

spanish make-up work

scripture study portfolio

spanish project

corrections on argumentative paper

find a ride to slc

natural disasters quiz 22

make slides for presentation

personal achievement parts 4, 5 & 6

buy plates for english

revise paper

family history lab

mock trial for madi

date with ryan

and that's just this week

the several days before the end of the semester

stress me out big time

thank heavens for

hot chocolate,

mae,

cosmo,

and thick socks

to keep me happy

p.s. this is probably silly, but i completely loathe the new facebook

only 13 days til i see these people :)

iCrush

can we please talk for a second about my unhealthy crushing?

michael phelps: im sorry that athletes have ridiculously nice bodies, but ive been in love with michael phelps from the second he jumped in the pool. im also willing to overlook his minor issue with weed

ryan gosling: he makes me jealous of rachel mcadams. the notebook is one of my faves, and its partly because ryan gosling is so effing attractive. and charming. and suave. and and and...

milo ventimiglia: i only like him when hes jess from gilmore girls, but hes the cutest. and i secretly want a jess.

michael j. fox: back to the future anyone? def in my top 10 favorite movies of all time. mostly because its fantastic. but partly because i fell in instalike with mj the first time i watched it.

liam hemsworth: nobody even knew who this kid was until they saw the last song. but that's certainly okay. he's australian. and looks almost as good with his shirt on as he does with his shirt off.

josh lucas: sweet home alabama was the beginning of my crush on mr. blue eyes, but then life as we know it just kinda sealed the deal.

josh duhamel: he just slays me is all

james franco: i think he is the most good looking man on this planet. almost. and hes smart! and i have this friend davy that looks pretty much identical to him. and i tell him. and he gets mad.

jake gyllenhaal: i just had to watch the day after tomorrow for my natural disasters class yesterday. and i fell in love with him. i mean, i saw october sky like 4347278 years ago and thought he was the cutest. but i looooved him in the day after tomorrow.

hugh jackman: oh haaaaiiiii mr. wolverine/leopold/the drover/robert angier :) australia breeds such attractive men

gerard butler: i think its obvious that i like accents. also gerard is just... :)

chase crawford: nate archibald may or may not be the big reason i watch gossip girl. and by that i mean he is.

es todo :)

twentysix days

29 days til 2011

i absolutely cannot believe this year is almost over. 2010 has gone by way tooo fast. ive decided to come up with a list of the highlights of 2010. soooooo, here it is (kind of in order):

• i experienced a blackout at byui on the last night of finals
• i dated bryan caresia
• i broke up with bryan caresia
• i worked for the best family in the world
• (andy orton)
• (zach eberhardt)
• i experienced some firsts that we don't need to discuss
• i served as the primary pianist in my ward
• i had the best birthday party ever
• i turned 19
• i tried sushi for the first time
• i went to john mayer with mr. mason whaley
• i dyed my hair back to my natural color
• i went back to byui and lived with my best friend
• i had a falling out with said best friend
• i went longboarding for the first time
• i watched every world cup game (even in class)
• i changed my major from elementary education to psychology, and declared a minor (spanish)
• i visited my favorite calaigh and spent the weekend with her
• i stayed up til 330am decorating the apartment for my roommates birthday
• i went to utah wayyy too many times
• i climbed r mountain
• i crossed "ride a motorcycle" off my bucketlist
• i spent memorial day weekend with becca lapierre, who came from home to visit me
• i went to hullballoo with betsy tracy and chelsea principio
• i went to the drive-in on a blind date
• i fell in love with amy cragun
• i applied for ecuador
• i got accepted to spend 3 months in ecuador
• i went to the david archuleta and david osmond concert
• i went to the eclipse premier and missed every class i had the next day
• i went to idaho falls for the fourth of july with some fabulous people
• i went to mesa falls with tanner shinnick (who i crushed on for 3 days after), and amy and zack
• (chris luke, the hawaiian)
• i survived my second semester and first year of college
• i moved to vegas and lived there for 7 weeks with my grandma
• i went to lake mead and smash burger for the first time
• i played dressup at the largest forever 21 in the world with shelby and juelaine
• i experienced boba for the first time, and loved every second of it
• i saw lion king at the mandalay bay
• i went to california with my mom and grandma and stayed in the terranea resort where jason and molly got married
• i went home for a week and got family pictures taken
• i went to katie goodwin's wedding reception
• i lost 12 pounds
• i spent the weekend in utah before i headed back up to byui
• (jimmy beech)
• i saw scott pilgrim vs. the world with chris leewright and justin gallegos
• i drove back to school with juelaine
• i spent every waking second with emily checketts
• i went to hullaballoo round 2 with bets and chels and emily and dusty and adam and kevin, and the rest of the rexburg population between the ages of 18 and 25
• i was on the 50 lap relay committee
• i spent conference weekend in utah
• i went to calaigh and sterling's wedding with jimmy beech, and phil taylor
• i decided to defer a semester to work
• i broke my phone
• (david starkweather)
• i decided to transfer schools
• i said goodbye to my good friend stepehen tomoser, who is currently serving a mission in california
• i got so scared i cried
• i saw mae on their farewell tour with betsy and juelaine and spent the night in the car
• i won tickets to 3oh!3
• i went to vegas for thanksgiving where i rode the bigshot at the stratosphere with amalia, and went on a scavenger hunt on the strip

aaaand im sure i missed a ton of stuff, as 2010 was a ridiculously busy year. but it was a fantastic one, for the most part. and i absolutely cannot wait to ring in the new year in quito ecuador. 2010 was good, but 2011 is gonna be even better. i just know it. even though im 29 days early, here's to the new year.

haha its a super crappy picture...

but this is becca last year on new year's eve

moms are the absolute best

my mom and i have had more than our fair share of problems in the past, but being away from her i realize how much i love and appreciate and value her. and im coming to accept that she (though i hate to admit it) is always right. i've been thinking a lot my plans for when i get back from ecuador. i'm going to be 20 and i've decided its time to start figuring out what i'm going to do with the rest of my life.

i deserve better than anyone i've ever had. i don't need anybody in my life that doesn't need me in theirs. and i'm done with being hurt, lied to, used, and taken advantage of. i think i've always been in love with the idea of love, and i'll admit that i fall too hard too fast. it's a flaw. and i'm working on it. so for now, i'm gonna do me. and that's it.

and efffff creighton. that won't be happening. but byui wont be happening either. i'm not happy here anymore. and it's beginning to keep me from...reaching my potential, or whatever. so there's a good chance that i will be at either kstate or ku next fall.

i can't express enough how ridiculously happy i am about ecuador.

i'm excited to speak nothing but spanish for 3 months.

i'm excited about spending 50+ hours in the orphanages with the children of quito.

i'm excited about this incredible opportunity i have.

i'm excited about getting away from everybody and everything.

i'm excited to be completely immersed in and devoted to the culture and service.

i'm just... so excited.

so here's to being completely over you.

i'm done waiting around.

i'm done being last on your list of priorities.

i'm done being ignored.

because i deserve better.

so much better.

here's to being happy.

this is me learning to be happy on my own before i can be happy with someone else.

this is me figuring out what i need for me.

this is me moving on.

here's to me.

i love my mom.

I.HATE.WINTER

im unmotivated,

unenthusiastic,

and entirely too negative,

about absolutely everything

i blame winter,

recent events in my personal life,

and the fact that i cant concentrate on anything

except that i will be home in 17 days

and ecuador in 29 days

also, its snowing today

and i dont do snow

which is why i shouldnt have come to a school in idaho

good thing this is my last winter here

forrrreeeeverrrr (like the kid from sandlot, of course)

so here's the plan for today:

clean the kitchen

watch boy meets world

watch the notebook

mayyybe go to choir (but only for ashley)

start the 7234981 hours of homework i have

naptime

mayyybe do laundry

go see easy a with juelaine

go to the gym

&

fall asleep to jason mraz

i like it

i like it a lot

here's to unproductivity :)

also, i hate losing friends

even if theyre dumb and steal your boyfriend