no time

i haven't done tumblr thursday in forever, i know. but i just don't have time for it! finals + white glove + work five days a week + sleep = no time for anything. just know that brent will be here in 18 days to spend two weeks with me and also know that i am obsessed with this song. thank you and goodnight.

lonely

the last day of classes is in 8 days. and everybody leaves in about 11. but not me. no, i'm stuck here during christmas, and new year's, and until everyone else comes back. why? because i have to work. it may sound like i'm complaining, but i'm trying not to. brent is coming to see me a couple days after christmas, but i will truly be friendless and alone until then. rexburg will be a ghost town, and i will probably end up talking to myself, discovering an imaginary friend, or sleeping the days away. only time will tell...

it's about time

for latter-day saints, family home evening is a time set aside each week that brings family members closer together while doing positive, uplifting activities that can also draw them closer to God. here at byu-i, our "families" are groups of 12-18 boys and girls from the same ward. unfortunately, every semester i've been here my fhe group hasn't really clicked and we don't enjoy spending time together outside of our monday night activities. 

i didn't have the highest of hopes for my fhe family this semester either, as there are twice as many girls as there are boys, and the boys we have are all 18, while we're a couple years older. well... i would just like to say that i am in love with them. it's stoooopid that we only have a week and a half left of school and we're just now finding out how great everyone is. but seriously. last night we all cuddled on our couch and watched music videos on the projector for five hours. not even mad about it.

a little letter

i did this for chelsie last summer,

but decided i wanted it on my blog too

To my 16-year-old me,

I believe that if I had known four years ago what I know now, I’d probably be in a better place. I’d probably be more successful, and definitely a little happier. So to you, naïve, young, cautious me of the past, I impart upon you my thoughts, advice, and wisdom of what is to come.

Be good to Mom. She’s put a lot of time, prayer, love, and worry into raising you. Don’t let it go to waste. She doesn’t deserve all the times you’re disobedient or disrespectful. Say something sweet to her everyday and go out of your way to be helpful, loving, and kind. Be honest with her. Respect her rules, though you may think they are unnecessary, foolish, or begging to be broken. Make an effort to improve your relationship with her. Because one day, you’ll realize she’s the only person in the world who has been there for you always. And you won’t want to have jeopardized the bond you’ve built with her. Remember that she is on your side, and wants nothing but your happiness and well being.

Work hard, really hard. In Algebra 2 when Ms. Smith has gotten on your very last nerve and you’re sick of being a sophomore and want nothing but for the year to be over, don’t stop doing your homework. Because if you do, you’ll end up with a pathetic little D on your report card that will upset Mom, ruin your GPA, and get you grounded for most of the summer, leaving you without a car and without a phone. And junior year, make sure you kick butt in your AP classes. Because I’m almost certain that if you do, you’ll get into your dream school. Trust Mr. Sickel and try out for Select Choir when he tells you to, not a year later. It turns out you’re good (who knew?).

You know that boy in your Spanish class, the one who eats lunch with your group of friends? Well, you guys are going to become best friends. And then you’re going to fall in love. And when you get into a really big fight, don’t be too upset with him. If you do, your friendship and relationship will end. And you’ll both be hurt. Let yourself love him. He’s the real thing.

Call Grandpa as often as you can, just to tell him you love him. Because senior year he’ll be gone, and you won’t be able to tell him anymore. And when you have to go live with Grandma for the summer after your first year of college, be excited about it. Because you’re going to find out how great she is, and how much she loves you.

Don’t be afraid; of making new friends, of trying new things, of being yourself. Be nice to absolutely everybody. Even the ones who are mean to you. Because the best advice you’ll probably ever get is to “kill them with kindness.” And it works so much better than being mean right back. Keep that in mind especially junior year.

When you’re 19 years old, you’re going to go to Ecuador for three months to volunteer in the orphanages. So make sure you pay attention in Spanish class! I mean it; learn as much as you can. This experience is going to completely change your life. You’re going to serve with girls who end up becoming life-long friends. You’re going to fall completely in love with some of the cutest, most perfect children on the planet.  Enjoy every single day, because when you come home you’re going to want to go right back and you won’t be able to. And while you think you’re so wonderful for changing their lives, they’re going to end up saving yours.

Don’t worry too much, and don’t sweat the small stuff. But the most important thing to know is that life goes on. High school ends, memories fade, people you thought were your friends turn out not to be, and things get tricky sometimes. But life goes on. There is something bigger and better than right now. Live in the moment, but don’t forget to dream. Make goals, make plans, and think of the bigger picture too. These are nowhere near the best years of your life. So just hold on. You can do it. You were born for this.

Love,

Paige

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this!

forever and ever

(and ever and ever and ever and ever)

hey there december ;)

seriously though... december, already? december is snowflakes, christmas music, candles, chocolate dipped pretzels, hot cocoa, finals, christmas in vegas, and secret santa at texas roadhouse. bring it.


current guilty pleasure: justin bieber's christmas album
current color: black
(ugh blogger is being retarded and keeps putting in necessary spaces, forgive me)

current playlist: lots of gavin degraw and bruno mars

current read: my child development textbook

current drink: chocolate milk

current food: caesar salad, butterfingers

current favorite show: new girl

current wish list: new blue skinnies

current needs: someone to pay my rent... today

current triumphs: 3 pounds

current bane of my existence: school school school omg schoooooool

current celebrity crush: dermot mulroney

current indulgence: sleep, so much sleep

current blessing: kind strangers

current outfit: striped tank top and sweats

current excitement: brent is spending winter break with me in idaho

current mood: stressed, nervous, anxious

current link: i love aj... and eventually everyone else will too

tumblr thursday will most likely come later (that's for you chelsie and ashley), but right now i've got a hot date with some stats and spanish phonetics. ugh let's fast forward two weeks please.

can't stop, won't stop

this song has been stuck in my head for days

and i'm not even mad